What can I do? Where should I go?

Ok first off, NEVER even think about hurting or killing yourself. EVER. All you can do is ride out the storm and look forward to life after you move out. Go to college, become what you want to become and run with it. Never look back and try to be a better person from what you find you don't like in them. As for your friends, never act. Go find someone who loves you for you. Not loves you for an actor. "Hate me if you want to, love me if you can." "It is better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not."